Releasing Pain — Rejection Issues Revisited Part III
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This is important in identifying why you feel what you feel. Recently, I desired prayer from a certain minister in our church. I waited for maybe ten or fifteen minutes for them to pray for others. When they were done, it was like I was invisible. They didn’t even see me standing there waiting. They turned away. I could tell they were done.
I was furious and hurt. When I got by myself, I screamed to God, “Why doesn’t anyone ever SEE ME!”
A week or so later, our pastor gave a message about Hagar, the mother of Ishmael. She was the servant/slave of Sarai, wife of Abram. When Sarai couldn’t bear children, she said to Abram to take Hagar, to have a “surrogate” child—one that Sarai would raise. Things weren’t working out well, so Hagar ran away into the desert.
The angel of the Lord came to Hagar in the wilderness, while she was pregnant with Ishmael. He even gives her a prophetic word for the son she is carrying.
She answers in Genesis 16:13, “So she called the name of the LORD who spoke to her, ‘You are a God of seeing,’ for she said, ‘Truly here I have seen him who looks after me.’”
El Roi—the God who sees me.
When I was alone, and later, this came to mind. I’m stubborn sometimes, wanting to “righteously” (not) hold on to my pain, my hurt, and my anger.
God nudged me to release that. It wasn’t easy, but I did it. It’s a decision. Plain and simple. You decide to give it up. You choose to let go. Maybe it’s not easy, although I think we make it harder than it needs to be.
Three weeks later, during a special ministry time just for me, those that I wanted prayer from, all prayed. And released prophetic words over me. I had the foresight to record that extended prayer time. I listen to it whenever I need a boost. It means a lot!
It healed that wound. Because not getting what I wanted when I wanted made me angry. Am I a spoiled child? Yikes! I was certainly acting like one. But God had a much better plan than I did.
Have rejection issues affected you? Leave a comment and let me know.