Revelations and Friendships

I have a friend, who recently told me some things about her origins. She had only recently learned them about herself. They were hard things to deal with, but I tried to encourage her. She’s adopted, like me, and has had a lot of the same issues that I’ve had…like rejection, a bad temper, etc. Do what you can. It’s all you can do. Help someone today. Click to Tweet #friendships #revelations

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Writing Scintillating Scenes––Part X

Big scenes. They are important to your story and will drive it along. How do you write a big scene? Is it a small focus, but vital to the story? A big scene may have only two characters interacting as part of a larger event, such as a wedding or funeral. Or a big scene could have many characters interacting together. Big scenes are important, whether the focus is large or small. Click to Tweet #amwriting #scintillatingscenes

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Addendum to APD Series

I realized that I’d forgotten to address certain symptoms of APD and what they look like––plus, how to deal with them, whether you’re the person with APD or a loved one or friend. At the root of APD is some sort(s) of childhood trauma(s). But finding acceptance heals. Click to Tweet #APD #rejection

Shyness is not just being an introvert, as most writers will say they are. Shyness associated with APD has deeper implications. I was very shy as a child. I’ve talked about that before on this blog. My Aunt Juanita seemed to terrify me––all 5’1” of her. I loved my Aunt Juanita when I stopped being afraid of her. She was really a very sweet person. I used to hide behind Mom’s skirts though around her. Rejections of any kind hurt. But when you have APD, as I believe I did, before I was born, I was afraid of people I didn’t know.

Hypersensitivity to rejection or criticism. People who suffer from APD need acceptance and handling with care –– to help them get past the pain. We take every rejection personally, because our work is “us.” So, if you criticize us because our work is subpar, we hear it as “we,” as a person, are subpar. Especially if the criticism isn’t constructive, it will be very destructive to those suffering from APD. Which leads us to…

Severe low self-esteem. Because people suffering from APD are usually bullied, either physically or emotionally, or both––sometimes it’s all we can do to have any kind of balanced thought about ourselves. I believe it’s also easy for APDers to suffer from pie-in-the-sky delusions of grandeur. Once we begin to think something good will actually happen to us––well then, let’s reach for the stars that we will never be able to get to. That leads to disappointment, more rejection, more self-loathing.

Inferiority complex. Because we’re constantly being derided and degraded and bullied by the world around us, not only do we feel poorly about ourselves, we’ll make sure we feel poorly. We’re never good enough, and we never will be. Some of us give up and give in to our fears, and we are loners. APDers often feel lonely because their circle is so small. Here’s a phrase I understand, and it seems almost opposite to what the APDer feels. “although others may find the relationship with them meaningful.” I’ve had several people tell me that I’m the only one who understands them. And their issues aren’t necessary rejection issues. But APDers seem to have an empathy with others.

We’re always looking for that connection. It took me years to realize that I make connections actually too quick, sometimes. That “normal” people make them a lot slower. Or––I don’t get to make the connections I want because I’m “tongue-tied.”

Someday, I’m going to write a book about all this, plus other recent revelations since that may also play into this. At any rate, I believe this is one of the issues I can speak to because I have it. I believe I’m healed from the worst pain. I haven’t been tested in it for a while, so things are pretty rosy right now. APD is something to be healed. It touches the emotional core of the one who has it. Unconditional love works wonders. Click to Tweet #APD #rejection

Writing Scintillating Scenes––Part VIII

How do you begin your scenes? There are several ways to open a scene. Let’s look at them. The way you open a scene will either draw the reader in or they’ll put your book down. Click to Tweet #amwriting #scintillatingscenes

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APD––Part XV As We Come to The End

These last couple months, I’ve been sharing true life stories as I remember them about some of the most painful rejections from my past. I’ve also talked about the healing I’ve gotten in stages, and what God has done with that. Anyone suffering from rejection can be healed. It just takes love and patience. Click to Tweet #APD #rejection

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Writing Scintillating Scenes––Part VIII

When writing your first draft, it’s more important to get the story out. Once that’s done, you’ll want to go back and add detail, character responses, and insert any needed description. That’s the importance of revision. Learn to balance your scenes with activity and character response. Click to Tweet #amwriting #scintillatingscenes

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We Interrupt This Series… Part II

A few weeks ago, I just had to share the news about finding my ethnicity, and confirming who my birth mother was. I also mentioned that a sister had reached out to me on this blog by leaving a comment, with hopes we could connect soon. Finding openness with new biological family members is healing. Click to Tweet #APD #sisters #family

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