While taking stock, I’m not in a hurry. But what I am doing, is pursuing God in a deeper way, going back to incorporating more of the spiritual disciplines, hoping God will either confirm my direction, or tell me to seek another way. #whatsyourmeasure #takingstock
This week, I have a different angle. You’ve heard the saying “jack of all trades, master of none.” I’m a “jill.” I certainly don’t have mastery over any of my gifts beyond the above-average mark I mentioned last week. A prophetic voice once told I had “many” gifts. That’s true, but the “measure” of the gifting is only above average, even though I’ve spent countless time and money investing in myself for years, trying to develop what I’ve been given.
I’m just not getting results, or as the financial world would say –– ROI (return on investment).
Let me share more about my musical gift, which I developed and used it for many years. But I could only go so far. I’d measure my music gift about a 7. To be generous, a 7.5. Remember how I told you I had to figure out what I could play that would at least sound good when given the assignment of those ditties on the flute. I spent four hours, just trying to figure out what the professional flutist was playing. Once I’d banged them out on the piano, I realized I could play the easy parts the same (except an octave lower), but had to simplify the others. I did what I could.
On another note, I didn’t know I could do crafts until I was nearly 40, because my mom was all thumbs when it came to crafts. She’d discovered her gifting was in spiritual teaching. Many people loved her lessons on the person and work of the Holy Spirit. She was probably a 9 in that.
But in writing, well, a 6.5 measure isn’t going to get me published by a traditional publisher. In Stephen King’s terms, I’m a competent writer. And sure, I could self-publish, and I’m still thinking about it.
But what’s the use if my writing will ever improve beyond the 6.5 it probably already is? And that is the discouraging part. If my measure, based on impartial scoring, which is still prejudicial and subjective, then it’s possible I’ve taken it as far as I can, and need to focus on something else. #whatsyourmeasure #takingstock
My best writing was scriptwriting in college, with that A++. It’s been all downhill since then. How do you evaluate your gifts? Leave a comment and let me know.