Do I Deserve to be Here – Part 3

Parts 1 & 2 were written before I knew my whole story. I knew most of it, but not all when I wrote those two posts in 2019. Late in 2019, I recorded a video testimony to my church about my comprehensive deliverance from negative spiritual forces. New information came to me in early 2021, which I have not made public on this blog before.

In 2017, I met my biological relatives for the first time. Most live in Arizona, far from me, so I have only seen them twice. My second journey was in January 2021. I needed to ask my sister a question that had been raised in September 2019 due to my video testimony.

Much is being talked about a woman’s body and personal choice. I can’t quote her exactly, but Presidential candidate Harris asked something about “Why should we make a 14-year-old girl carry a child full-term when she is a victim of rape or incest?” I used to think that way. I was never for abortion on demand, but many years ago, my mercy motivation could understand abortion in rape/incest or mother’s health endangerment. That was then. I didn’t know my story then; I didn’t want to.

I really didn’t think I would ever know who my birth father was — but I know now. My precious sister told me through tears. I told her that whoever it was, it couldn’t hurt me. I wasn’t raised in the family, and I was healed and secure in my identity in Christ. The knowledge couldn’t hurt me. I was already suspicious that it was a male relative. I believe God was preparing me to know.

Through her tears, she confirmed it was my grandfather. I just said, “Thank you for telling me. It doesn’t hurt me! God and I will do something with this!” And I hugged her. I have sought the Lord about this, and recently, with the elections nearing, I have decided to “go public” with this revelation. I have told some people close to me along the way so that they know because they are part of my life’s journey.

I have no shame in admitting that my conception is from the worst way possible because the people involved have already passed. I didn’t know them. I never met them. The important thing to remember here is that it doesn’t matter how I was conceived. I believe God revealed something very important to me on the day Roe v. Wade was overturned. I heard Him say, “I didn’t have to create you. I wanted to, and I created you with intention and purpose.” That meant a lot to me.

So — Yes! I do deserve to be here! I am not an accident. I was created with intention and purpose. I’m still learning what those intents and purposes are, but that’s the journey I’m on. And I’m not alone; the Holy Spirit leads and guides me. The point is transferrable to you! Whatever you believe you need to overcome from your personal history, God is there to help you, to heal you, and reveal to you the plan He has for your life!

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